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The State of Pennsylvania, Clearfield County is playing games with the life of my Grandson. I've asked Gov. Greg Abbott for help in resolving this, but it remains to be seen whether or not he will help. Texans shouldn't have to worry about other states trying to steal children. I understand that the Federal Government doesn't actually care about Texas children, but Texas should care about Texas children. It would be so easy for Greg Abbott to make a simple phone call to Pennsylvania. Make it happen Greg!

This is one of the most disturbing images I've ever seen. Since when is it okay for for a grown man to kneel on the neck of diaper wearing toddler. I know how us orphans would treat him. We've never been prejudice either. Click here to see.

I used to sing this song in the Lakota language as a child in the orphanage. Being Native American in an orphanage filled with virtually every race, certainly made me feel outnumbered. Click here to watch.

Mitawa atewaye toka ca oyate wiya. Ki oyate iye hemaca wasicu wanu esa woope. Okisye anukiya. That would be the first verse of Half Breed in the Lakota language.

Of course her DNA doesn't match King Richard III. He is British. She is German. The 1701 Act of Settlement ensured that only German's would occupy the throne of England. I thought everyone knew this already.

My husband served in the US military for 30 years; and since I was his wife, I served also. When he first joined the military in 1979, they promised him and his family, lifetime medical and dental care. President Reagan violated his campaign promises almost immediately after taking office. He ordered that the Military stop allowing dependents to utilize the Military Dental Centers. They did offer a dental insurance program instead, which came with a cost that few could afford. President George H. W. Bush followed in Reagan's footsteps almost immediately after taking office. He started making military family members pay for healthcare through a program called CHAMPUS. It too, came with a cost to service members. When President Obama took over, he essentially gutted the military healthcare system. Military retirees were forced to seek medical care through the Veterans Administration (VA), which was terrible; but the VA didn't do anything for spouses and dependents of retirees. Veterans had to be 100% disabled to qualify for dental care. Now, the military forces retiree dependents to utilize another healthcare system called Tricare. Over the last 10 years, Tricare has consistently raised the cost (each year) to the point that many retirees can no longer afford it. In 2020, Tricare told the US Government that it will raise costs by 40%. What happened to the promises that were made to my husband, and other retirees about lifetime medical and dental care? My husband and I went to the US Air Force pharmacy today and tried to fill a prescription my doctor wrote for me. It was for my insulin. I have Type II diabetes. The military pharmacy told me that the Military had been directed to discontinue the insulin I use. They also told me that no generic substitute was available either. I looked up the insulin cost at Walgreens, and CVS. It was over $500 for a one month supply. Also, I was recently told by my military pharmacy that they would no longer carry a rescue inhaler I've been using for years. It cost almost $150 for a month's supply. I forgot to mention that CVS pharmacies don't honor Tricare insurance for active-duty, or retirees.

Now here is the irony; a friend of mine is enrolled in Medicaid because she can't get a job because she's overweight. She uses the same insulin and rescue inhaler I do. She takes her prescriptions to CVS Pharmacy and they fill her prescriptions free of charge (not even a co-pay). She is 34 years old and overweight, and uses her food stamps to buy very unhealthy food. I am 58 years old and in good health. I served with my husband for over 30 years in the military. My friend never served a single day in the military. How ironic is that? Before we know it, the Government will no longer bury veterans. We'll be told to cremate our veterans to lower costs. With President Trump stealing trillions of dollars from the Defense Authorization bucket for his wall, it looks like he will be the most Veteran unfriendly president of all time.

More and more people are trying to rid the planet of pedophiles. Click here to read how there doing it.

I have some unfinished business in Tomball Texas. So my son and daughter and I are in the RV headed there. I have several friends living there. They want to meet my kids. My husband is at the wheel. I've done several family trees, and I would like to hand deliver one of them while I'm there. I haven't seen my friends in almost 40 years.

As a reminder to anyone hoping to obtain information on my childhood, they should look at the TYC archives in Austin Texas. Also, when the Texas Investigator was looking at my case, he told me that he had been an investigator for 25 years and he had never seen anyone go to so much trouble to hide a child; nor had he ever seen a child mistreated and abused so much. He told me that I was never supposed to go to Coastal Bend Youth City in Driscoll Texas. He said that I was supposed to go to an orphanage. As it turns out, it was my adopted parents (who had already given me back to the State of Texas) who were manipulating the County Judge, and the Director of Youth City, by paying them. What kind of hatred does it take for someone to do that to a child? Even the Social Workers were in on it. How does a child who's had something like this happen to them, ever supposed to trust authority figures? Pain changes people. I also discovered that my adopted family actually stole me from my mother. They claimed that she was unfit, because she was poor. They had money, so they paid witnesses to claim they had seen her neglecting me. My adopted family were devious. They were trying to adopt a kid who would ultimately be a slave to them. I was. My son was too. Thinking about this makes me cry. I'll pray for their souls.

This video of mine has been on YouTube for several years, but suddenly someone complained about privacy of my son. So I had to blur his face. Isn't it sad how an illegal immigrant can cause so much drama!

Niye mos ognake oyake taniyohi la hemaca iyuha leciya ki oyanke. I can speak Norwegian too. I can also speak Spanish and Arabic. Such a fitting tribute to Phil Collins; the greatest drummer of all time. I used to sing his songs while I was in the orphanage, but I sang his songs in the Lakota language. I am a direct descendant of King Richard III of England. It is appropriate.

As a former Texas Orphan, it helps to let people know that at least some of us succeeded. Click here to watch.

I found out after making this video that my son's girlfriend is not his wife as she claims. She's an illegal immigrant. Her mother is an illegal immigrant. Her sister is a prostitute. She decided to use his last name, in an effort to confuse people, and make everyone think she is American. She isn't. She is extremely jealous of me. I don't think I've met anyone who's as controlling as her. She doesn't even know me. She loves drama. I think that she would kill me if she had the chance. She wasn't complaining when she took all of that money from me, or the free Camaro I gave her. Stop complaining to YouTube. Spank you; spank you very much.

Israel Kamakawiwo'ole sang this song just as good as Judy Garland did. He could sure sing. Aloha Israel.

A few days ago, I decided to apply for membership to a Native American tribe. I did not apply because of any benefits I may be entitled to. I applied to help preserve my family's heritage and culture. I carry their genes and their blood in me. It is my duty to help preserve their memory. When I was being raised in Youth City, the staff tried to discourage kids from trying to follow their individual cultures. They failed. Why would anyone try to erase these kids individual identities? When immigrants and refugees arrive at our shores, they're required to assimilate to our culture. So why didn't the first immigrants to America assimilate to Native American cultures? The U. S. Government wants Native Americans to assimilate to it's culture. It's because they fear what they don't understand.

My Grandson's Kindergarten Graduation
Just look at that smile. I'm holding his baby brother

My Grandson's Mother's Day picture
He knows that Grandma loves him

I have several other children, but I don't mention them on my website because they want to remain private, and I completely understand that. My oldest son was stolen from me, and I will never risk that happening again. He'll be 40 in 2020. Sometimes you just have to hide them.

Recently I contacted the St. Regis Mohawk Tribal Council to ask about my heritage and connection to my 8th Great Grandfather, Chief Caniachkoo of the Mohawk Turtle Clan. First of all, you would think that the Tribal Council would be excited to talk to someone who is descended from such a prestigious individual associated with their own history. There aren't too many people walking around today who are descended from three different Native American tribes, like I am. Unfortunately, not a single one of the 6 members of the Tribal Council bothered to answer me. I realize that the Tribal Council are busy with other matters. It appears that the revenue being earned from their casino is more important to them than their own history. Wakonieskwani Iakorihonnién:ni. Hemaca Wablenica. Econ sni El etuwa sni Miye.

My Grandfather was a member of the Pima tribe
His birth name was John Jay Junior

Because my Grandfather was a full-blooded Pima-Maricopa Indian who grew up on the reservation, my mother certainly does bear some resemblance to him. She knew that her father was Native American, but he decided to raise her away from the reservation. In the 1930's, the U.S. Government really wasn't providing much assistance to the Native American tribes. He wanted his kids to be raised as "Whites," since he was told when he left the reservation that if he wanted to make it in the world, he had to lose his Native American language. He wouldn't allow his kids to linger too long in the sun, out of fear their skin would darken. During this time in American, it was very prejudice toward Native Americans. How sad is that? I met my Grandfather once. Now I tend to avoid getting too much sun as well, since I would also darken, just like my Grandfather. How ironic is it for White immigrants to tell the original people of North America to forget their language? Did anyone tell the German, Dutch, Irish and other settlers to America to forget their ancestral language? These days, we have to press 1 for English when we call someone.

My 4th Great Grandmother, my Grandfather and me
Let there be no doubt who they are. I'm 58 yrs old

My 8th Great Grandfather Sachem Caniachkoo
Chief of the Mohawk Turtle Clan

Queen of the Mohawk of Hog Island Mic Kameoka
Queen of the Mohawk of Hog Island Mic Kameoka
Daughter of Sachem Caniachkoo

This is a painting of Queen of the Mohawk of Hog Island Mic Kameoka Hertel, Mohawk Turtle Clan from 1590 AD. She is one of the daughter's of my 8th Great Grandfather Chief Caniachkoo of the Mohawk Turtle Clan. She is in fact the sister of my 7th Great Grandmother Lysette Aktok Caniachkoo. Both sisters married Dutch settlers.

I was shocked to hear the hateful stories about this woman, from her own son. He told me that her goal has always been to take all of his children from him. She claims to be a Senior Case Worker from St. Lawrence County Department of Social Services (DSS). However, upon further investigation, she was nothing more than a clerk. But that didn't stop her from using her position in the County to help herself. Her son told us that she is a chronic smoker and alcoholic, and that she wouldn't lift a finger to help him, unless there was something in it for her. Her son was a fugitive from justice for over 7 years, and she helped to hide him. Several of her grandchildren are also fugitives from justice, and she is helping to hide them also. She even pretends to be Native American. They call this a "Pretindian." As a genealogist, I looked up her family tree and it shows pure European ancestors; no Indian. This really makes me (a real Native American) angry. She's another Elizabeth Warren??

New York Assemblywoman cites corruption
St. Lawrence County employees are corrupt

My husband, Dr. Tommy Sosbee is a Doctor of Business. He specializes in International Business. He was formerly the Country Manager for numerous businesses in Iraq, managing business assets over $2.2 billion dollars. He was also instrumental in saving several Dubai businesses over $50 million dollars. I know that several Native American Tribes have numerous business holdings. I know that my husband could help them grow their assets, and their revenue streams. Think about that. I can help you. I won't fail you.

I'm going to crash the first granddaughter's wedding just like this video shows. I hope God forgives me for peeing myself.

Why the Devil Hates the Blessed Virgin Mary So Much (And Why You Should Love Her)

Want to know what role she will play?
Satan already knows

My Daddy was a Police Officer, and he didn't want me hooking up with the wrong kind of guy. So I understand this video. I have daughters and granddaughters, and I feel the same way.

I went for a walk to exercise the other day, and while I was walking through some bushes, a man jumps out, grabs me and tries to unbutton my pants. He hit me in my eye. Fortunately, I was able to get my knife out, so I stabbed him in the buttocks. He screamed and ran away with his pants down around his knees, and my knife still sticking in his ass. If this pervert is reading this; I would like my knife back. It's gotten so bad here that perverts are hiding in the bushes, waiting to pounce on women. I'm 58 years old, but I look much younger. Maybe that's why he pounced on me. I didn't have a chance to take my gun out of my bra holster because I was on the ground. He didn't get a chance to rape me. I did get a black eye out of the ordeal. I've had much worse happen to me. Maybe it's time to move.

This music video reminds me of me before I met my husband. As an orphan, not knowing what real love was; he showed me what it was. 34 years later, he still loves me as much as he did when we said "I do" to each other. Click here to watch.

My Ex used to tell me these very same words. His family didn't want him to be with an orphan. I gave him two children. 35 years later, he is a brain surgeon and he has never forgotten me, or ever married. He loves our children. Click here to listen.

Anyone who remembers Kris Kristofferson, will love hearing his testimonial about his coming to Jesus. It will touch your heart. Click here.

Click here to see my new website, which shows my Family Tree. Be prepared to see a lot of Royalty, and the Blessed Virgin Mary herself.

My new book is now published and available on It's called "The Orphan's Discovery." Click here to see it.

The Orphan's Discovery by Carolyn Whitbeck
available on

After reading "The Orphan's Discovery," one may ask themselves why and how the British Royal Family became the British Royal Family. The Act of Settlement decreed that no Catholics would ever sit on the British Throne; to include true blooded British Royalty, who were actually descended from the actual British Kings and Queens of old. The Act of Settlement ended the true British Royal Family, and the throne was handed to the Protestant Hanoverian Royal House from Germany. The current British Monarchy remains of German descent.

Carolyn Whitbeck is directly descended from over 120 Kings and Queens of Europe and Scandinavia, to include 80 Plantagenet, Capet and Anjou dynasties of Britain. There isn't a single member of the current British, Norwegian, Swedish or Danish monarchies who are directly descended from the same number of actual royals of old. One has wonder, how all of this transpired? What happened to the Stuart Royal House? What happened to the Plantagenet Royal House? Why does the current British monarchy insist on telling everyone they're descended from the very Jewish House of King David? The Saxe-Coburg-Gotha Royal House is Hanoverian, and ultimately.... German; not Jewish. Ever wonder why none of them are willing to provide their DNA? There is a good reason. It wouldn't match any known DNA to the Kings or Queens of old, except in Germany. 

Click here to read a horrifying story about child abuse and murder of children.

Jesus said "Be like a little child"
But don't turn a child to sin.

Click here to read the news story about my royal family tree. It's an amazing story.

Part of my Royal Bloodline


Kings, Queens, Lady's and Lord's

This is called a Direct Line Descendancy
This is an unbroken line of descent

Paul's Valley Democrat news story about me.
My royalty is mentioned in the story

Baron's of the Magna Carta:

These 20, I am directly descended from.

Richard de Clare, Earl of Hertford

Geoffrey de Mandeville, Earl of Essex and Gloucester

Saer de Quincy, Earl of Winchester

Henry de Bohun, Earl of Hereford

Roger Bigod, Earl of Norfolk and Suffolk

Robert de Vere, Earl of Oxford

William Marshal junior

Robert Fitzwalter, baron of Little Dunmow

Gilbert de Clare, heir to the earldom of Hertford

Hugh Bigod, heir to the Earldoms of Norfolk and Suffolk

William de Mowbray, Lord of Axholme Castle

Robert de Ros, Baron of Helmsley

John de Lacy, Constable of Chester and Lord of Pontefract Castle

Richard de Percy

William Malet

Geoffrey de Saye

William d'Aubigny, Lord of Belvoir

William of Huntingfield, Sheriff of Norfolk and Suffolk

John FitzRobert de Clavering, Lord of Warkworth Castle

Richard de Montfichet

Jack Harris and my husband worked on this for quite some time. Jack was a walking dictionary. I have put all of this in God's hands.

Click here to listen to the song me and my husband listen to after 35 years of marriage. We love it. Thank you Train!

Unlike QE II, my tree goes to real UK royalty
Countess Alice was my 22nd GGM

My 7th GGF John Jay
1st Chief Justice of Supreme Court

My 7th Great Grandfather is John Jay, 1st Chief Justice of the US Supreme Court. Considering how the US Supreme Court is behaving these days, I'm sure my 7th Great Grandfather is rolling over in his grave. Our Constitution is being trampled on every day. Our Founding Father's like John Jay fought hard for every word written in our Constitution. They were God Fearing men, and they used the Bible to guide them. These days, our Bible has been removed from everything we do.

I want to take the time to offer my apologies and sympathies to the family of George Chandler. George Chandler was an avid Genealogist and DNA expert. I shouldn't have judged you. I thought you shut me off. I thought you abandoned me. I still have the picture of you and your dog. I will keep it close. I will never forget you. You were always willing to explain things, especially DNA Science. We will miss you.

Carolyn headed to the fast-draw range
Number One in her class

Click here to read about how the Pope is backsliding on his promise to crack down on pedophile priests.

Back in 1981, I got pregnant with my daughter Sabra. There was a lot of turmoil in my life at the time. I decided to go see my mother in Wichita Kansas. While I was visiting her, her boyfriend got drunk and raped me. When I told my mother, she said she would deal with him (he later committed suicide). I packed my little suitcase and walked to the bus station, got on the bus, and never looked back. When I got back to San Antonio, I was homeless and pregnant. I went to the Lutheran Home for unwed mother's. As I progressed further along in my pregnancy, I knew that something wasn't right. I was rushed to the hospital, where I met Dr. Holzhauser. I was bleeding internally. My daughter was stillborn, but I was bleeding to death. When I lost consciousness, I found myself watching myself in the hospital bed, watching Dr. Holzhauser scream at the nurses to get more blood. Then suddenly I heard children's giggling, and a voice that said, "You're not done with everything your supposed to do, so I'm sending you back to finish." The voice then said, " I do love you and I always have." Suddenly I was conscience again, and I asked Dr. Holzhauser why he was screaming and cursing. He said that this was impossible since I had flat-lined and was dead. I told him that I had heard everything he said. I knew then that it was Sabra's giggling I'd heard, and that she was with God. God sent me back to continue my advocacy and to help other orphans. I continue to do so. For those of you who don't believe me, it's okay. I'll pray for your souls.

Way to go Governor Abbott. Click here to read about it.

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Carol trying on hats at a vintage hat show
Carolyn April 2017 at age 55

After giving coats to the Orphans
Feeding the ducks and geese at the lake

Our Grandson Evan recently fractured his wrist. Our daughter took him to one of the "Urgent Care" clinics in town. They took X-Rays and confirmed the fracture. Instead of putting a cast or splint/brace on his wrist, they sent our daughter to a Pediatric Orthopedics office. The pediatrician was shocked that the Urgent Care Clinic didn't put a cast on our grandson. The Pediatrician called the Urgent Care Clinic "Doc in a Box," and said these clinics are a sham/scam. Be careful when considering the use of one of these clinics. Sending a 3-year old boy home with a fracture, without a cast is ridiculous. He had two fractures on the same arm, and walked around for over a week in pain. These places should be sued.

Carolyn playing piano at an orphanage
Singing Christian songs with the kids

On our trip to California to visit our daughter
She is in Medical School. 21 November 2016

The best friend, lover, mother and grandmother
ATribute to Carolyn from her lucky husband

Letter from King Harald of Norway
Expressing excitement. God Bless them

Carolyn's lie detector test resuts
Of course she passed

I am descended from Virgin Mary's Family
St. Joseph gave his own tomb to Jesus

I am descended from the Mohican Turtle Clan
My Dutch ancestors married the Indians

I am descended from the Cheyenne River Sioux
Remember Wounded Knee Massacre?

I am connected to the Rockefeller and Astor family
Wonder if they'll give me something

I am descended from the famous Astor Family
They are related to the Queen Mother by marriage

Mississippi has now done what all other states should do, with their welfare recipients. They have the right idea. Click here to watch the video.

We as a human race can stop this.
So why haven't we stopped it?

I am a Christian, but I am no longer a Catholic
They foresake the victim and protect the priests

I am a Christian, let no one say otherwise. Jesus told us to treat everyone as our brother. But recently here in Colorado Springs, a drug-addicted young man threw a young woman off an overpass. The impact broke her neck and spine, and paralyzed her. The man then dragged her up into the rafters of the bridge, and proceeded to rape her for 3 days. The man was an African-American (also homeless) and the woman was White. After three days, some other homeless people heard her yelling and called police. The man was then arrested, and is now facing attempted murder charges; among other charges. Some people are just downright evil. How can we love someone like this? Its like loving Satan.

One of the most disgusting stories you will ever see. Click here to read about this evil man.

If so many devout Catholics now know about the cover-up of sexual abuse committed by Catholic Priests against children; why do they still give their money to the church? Church supporters are simply enabling the church to continue this behavior. Do not honor these priests; instead, incarcerate them with the other pedophiles.

Beware of the false prophets. They will preach righteousness; but behind the scenes, they're raping a child. They prey upon the helpless and vulnerable. They especially targeted orphans (boys and girls) because they have no one to advocate for them.

House of Horrors
This is where I was first sexually abused.

Like "Make - A - Wish" Foundation for terminally ill children; there should be a venue for orphans to share their wishes. Don't get me wrong; I think Make-A-Wish is a fabulous program, and it really does work miracles. But why isn't there a similar platform for American orphans? These kids are in hopeless situations and rarely feel any love from the staff who care for them. Rarely do they even get a present when Christmas comes. Each day is all about survival of the fittest. Wondering each day what they did to deserve such a life. There are no trips to Disney World for these kids. No new toys to play with. So where do they turn? In most cases, God is the only outlet they have, and many of these kids spend countless hours praying to God for help. With donated "Hand-Me-Down" clothes to wear each day, donated food (often moldy and expired) to eat, what is there to look forward to?

A recent survey of Texas Prison inmates shows that 40% of them were either adopted or orphans as children. This clearly shows that there is a problem with both Adoption programs, and/or Texas Orphanages/Group Homes, and the way these kids are treated in these programs. Due to the little Federal Funding Texas gets for Foster kids, or Orphan kids; the state has no incentive to find suitable homes for these kids. The states need for money outweighs the need to find suitable homes for these kids. It has always been about money. Try spending 10-15 years in an institution as a child, and see if you don't walk out without a grudge to bear against the world.

If they could make a single wish; and have it taken seriously by someone, you can imagine the impact it would have on this child. Think about it. As a former orphan myself, I understand just how these kids feel. This is why I will never stop trying to help orphans. I made a promise to God to tell everyone who will listen. Hopefully, people are listening. Thank you for all of you who have already helped.

Carolyn's advocacy then and now
2007 until 29 September 2015


An Orphan's Poem
by Carolyn Sosbee

In a strange place
Afraid and alone
Without a familiar face
With no place to call home

Some will say "It was meant to be"
So why do I feel like everyone abandoned me
I just want to feel safe again
This is something I've never been

Would you be able to feel my pain
Or what its like to walk alone in the rain
There is one who understands all of this though
It is through God's grace that I continue to go

I get my strength from God's understanding
He sees all those who are cruel and mean
I know God hears my silent scream
As I search for a family who isn't too demanding

All orphans should understand
We are all part of God's Master plan.

A Poem for my daughter Sabra who died at birth 16 July 1982
by Carolyn Sosbee


An Angel Never Dies

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.

Carolyn in 2003
Helping disabled veterans in their home

The Archangel Gabriel
He watches over us orphans

Some Judges put kids in jail to force them to visit with an abusive parent (click here)

Signing of the US Constitution
Why is it not enforced today?

Ever wonder which States have the highest numbers of sex offenders? You might be surprised. Our Police need to do more to control these perverts. I just looked at the list and yelled "AAaahhhh!!!!" after seeing Colorado at number 10. OMG!!!

Aaahh!! Perverts live here???

Click here to see if your State made the top-10 list.

Colorado Springs Parks and Recreation spent a lot of money building a new playground on the west side of Prosperity Lake. We took our grandson there today so he could play on the new playground. There are also picnic areas and tables there as well. We brought lunch to eat while we were there. While we were eating lunch with our grandson; a 30 year old intoxicated African-American man, with a younger African-American female were talking at the same picnic area we were at. The man was trying to convince the young girl to give up her existing pimp to join him instead. The man was using extremely loud profanity, describing the female genitals, and sexual terminology in front of the children and other adults there with their children. He was even drinking a bottle of whiskey, even though consuming alcohol at the park is illegal. The girl was crying and telling the man to leave her alone, but he wanted to strongly urge her that she was making a mistake by staying with her pimp. Clearly this was an inappropriate place to be discussing such a topic. I finally got up and asked several of the other mothers there watching their children, and hearing the filth the man was saying in front of their kids; why they were not saying anything to the man; and they all had this look of disgust, but also fear of saying anything. The park used to be a nice place to take children. Not any more. Even the Colorado Springs Police don't have a roving officer to keep things like this from happening. If the city is going to spend so much money on a brand new playground, just to let it be overrun by pimps and prostitutes; what was the point? Poor people here have no other place to take their kids. The other parents said "The cops don't do anything anyway." We decided to go to the other side of the lake, thinking it would be safer; but we saw older men masturbating in public while watching little girls playing. We decided to just leave. We will not be taking our grandson there again. We also told our grandson that these bad men are not normal; and to forget what they were saying and doing. Where are our Police? Why are they not posting an officer or two in this very public place? Colorado is not as nice as people think. Its getting as bad as Skid-row in South LA. We could sure use God's help here. It's called Memorial Park because of the beautiful Armed Services Memorials there as well. There is a beautiful church nearby that has bells that play songs at certain times of the day. Yet a mere few hundred yards away, you can see perverts, pedophiles, pimps, prostitutes with liquor, hanging around the children's playground; with no Police presence. It's summer time, and the kids deserve a nice safe place to play.

Do you know why orphans and former orphans feel better talking to other former orphans; its because they speak the same language. Many of the people working with CPS and Social Services have absolutely no idea what's going through the mind of an orphan. Orphans have had to ask an adult for the basics like shampoo, toothpaste, or deodorant; shaving cream or a razor to shave with. In a normal environment, parents usually have these items for their children to use as they please. Not orphans. These items might be used to harm someone or themselves, and must be controlled. There will be tons of apprehension; and a multitude of questions like how will they survive once they age out of the system. Many orphans will have no connections, no families; and no support network to rely on. Many will not have the educational background to apply for college either, since orphans are most likely to be pushed aside in a school environment. How are they supposed to survive? Their options are extremely limited. How would you react if you were suddenly kicked out of the only home (albeit a terrible home) you've ever known? This is the system that exist today. State and Federal Governments can do so much more for these kids. It would not take too many resources either. But they have to want to do this. Don't just kick these kids out on the street. They will have no choice but to do what they must to survive. For girls this usually means prostitution; and for boys it usually means criminal activities such as drug dealing. What else can they do without an education? if there was a support system for these kids, the success rate would be much higher. My husband and I have tried to help as many orphans who have aged out of the system, by helping them find a job, affordable housing, and reliable transportation; drivers licenses, among other things; but most importantly, we show them that we care, and that they are not alone. We show them the love they haven't known before. It doesn't cost anything to show love to an orphan; and it definitely brings a smile to their faces. Why can't our government or our churches help more? The government doesn't care, and many churches are too busy funding the lavish lifestyles of their pastors. We've actually seen stories of military families moving to another base and leaving their teenagers behind with nothing, because the child had run away. These kids wind up homeless, wandering the streets, and fall prey to corrupt individuals or organizations. They have no other place to turn to. As a safe-house on the military base, many of the worst kids ended up at my house; looking for nothing more than love. So what did we do? We showed them love.

Click here to see this ludicrous idea.

We have so many Federal Days named after so many things. Why can't we have a National Orphan Day? This would be a day dedicated to the betterment and furthering of the orphans plight. A day where everyone in the US could do something for an orphan. Imagine the difference this would make in the life of a forgotten orphan. Or to remember an orphan who died alone, afraid and forgotten. God would be happy to see so much love for the forgotten ones; the orphans.

Here are some startling statistics regarding orphans here in the USA.

Sadly; politicians and civic leaders rarely address this critical issue. They're busy trying to remove God from every facet of daily life. We all need to grow and renew our faith in God, for it is God who makes all things possible. An overwhelming majority of these orphans are destined for a prison cell without a loving, caring environment to grow in. The huge business of prisons and prisoners has a huge profit attraction for too many politicians; so they have no incentive to try to reduce the numbers of prisoners. As sad as it is, most American's are more interested in watching the Kardashians, than to worry about American orphans. What has happened to us all?
Now with many illegal children crossing into the US (thanks to Obama), these number will grow dramatically. Remember what God says about orphans:

Arabic: "معاملة اليتيم فلا قسوة" (القرآن الكريم 93: 9)   
English: (Job 29:12) Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, and the orphan who had no helper.

God keeps the orphans in a special place in his heart. We should all realize this. If we remove God from our daily life; then the orphans will also be removed from our thoughts.

In the Quran, orphans are mentioned 23 times. In the Bible, orphans are mentioned 33 times. Orphans are mentioned 25 times in the Torah. So why are orphans treated so badly? Ask Pastor Rick Warren what he thinks about orphans. You might be surprised what he has to say.

Also, grandparents should be allowed to be considered an option for children whose parents are unfit. Because some states don't allow this; bloodlines are being erased. As an orphan myself, it would've been great to be allowed to stay with my grandparents; instead of being placed in a State Home; or being stolen. Government knows that poor families are vulnerable; and are easy targets for CPS and DHS to manipulate, and separate. I was repeatedly molested and raped while in the custody of the state, and foster care. This is all about making money.
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at:
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at:
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at:

  • Children in foster care in the U.S.:  402,378
  • Children in foster care waiting to be adopted: 101,840
  • Children entering foster care in 2013: 254,904
  • Children exiting foster care in 2013: 238,280
  • Average time in care within the foster system: 21.8 Months
  • Children “aging out” of the foster system in 2012 in FY: 23,090
  • Average age of a child waiting to be adopted:  7.7 years old
  • Number of children in care whose parental rights were terminated in FY 2013:  58,887
  • Approximate number of children adopted from foster care in FY 2013:  50,281
  • How many people it takes to make a difference in an orphan's life: 1 (you).

Many of you are parishioners at Mega-Churches around the US. Your pastors are millionaires. Rarely do these churches contribute to American Orphans. Here is what the Bible says about wealthy pastors in 1 Timothy 5:6:

1 Timothy 6:5 Constant friction among people who are depraved in mind and deprived of the truth, imagining that godliness is a means of gain. 6:6 Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment, 6:7 for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. 6:8 But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content. 6:9 But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. 6:10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs. 6:11 But as for you, O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness.

Pastor Rick Warren is the only mega-church preacher who is doing this. He takes no salary; and 99% of the money his church makes is given to charity. Why don’t the other mega-church pastors follow this example?  They have been tempted away by the money.

Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at:
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at:
Because I delivered the poor who cried for help, And the orphan who had no helper. - See more at:

Pastor Creflo Dollar (aka: Michael Smith)
In jail awaiting trial for fleecing his flock (stealing)

An update for you on Pastor Creflo Dollar. It looks like God found a way to hold him accountable here on earth. He has been arrested for stealing money from his church. Click here to hear the story.

Convicted murderer Maury Davis
AKA: Mega-church pastor

Click here to see one of the biggest scams of all time.

Texas Governor Greg Abbott should be commended for his actions and efforts in trying to change the way Texas treats its orphans. He truly cares about Texas children. The former Governor Rick Perry did absolutely nothing to help Texas orphans; and even President Obama has done nothing to further the cause of American orphans. The Texas Legislature doesn't want to work with Governor Abbott on anything; especially since Greg Abbott opposes the way they all lined their pockets with taxpayer money. He represents a threat to their corrupt ways. Way to go Governor Abbott!!

We all have to keep a watchful eye out for pedophiles and perverts on the internet these days. This is just another example of the perversion. Click here. Sex Slavery is a very real problem, and its happening right here in the USA; not just Mexico. God help this poor girl.

Live your life in the way of Christ
God knows what's in your heart

Why is there so much hatred? Why are so many of our young people being killed. God says there is no prejudice in heaven. However, some preachers and Presidents try to foment hatred between races. Jesus says,  ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.” Clearly this is an important commandment. So why is it ignored by so many? Why does Reverend Sharpton (and some churches) preach hatred? Why does President Obama speak after a black teen is killed by a white Police Officer; but says nothing when a white teen is killed by a black Police Officer? There is a great divide in our nation, and it goes all the way to the presidency. Follow the teachings of Christ, and this divide will get smaller. Why can't all races march together to convince others to love one another? Remember, there is no prejudice in heaven. In order to get to heaven, live your life in the way of the Lord. Amen!

"God, I'm trying to help you." Carolyn Sosbee 

When children are being abused Angels are watching
Do not abuse a child. Not all angels are nice.

I want to say a few things about the terrible treatment our military veterans are being given now. My husband served for 30 years. When we were first married, it was much different. We got free dental care for the entire family; free prescriptions, and free medical care. Now, we have to pay for the dental care; pay for the prescriptions; and pay for the medical care. It takes weeks, if not months to get an appointment to be seen This is how our military veterans are being treated. Of course Medicaid (for Welfare) has no cost for medical care; $1.00 for prescriptions, and no cost for dental services. Seems a little backward doesn't it. Whatever happened to Sen. John McCain and the Armed Services Committee? Oh, I know! President Obama (military hating president) must've gotten to him. When my husband joined the military back in 1980, he was promised lifetime medical care. My husband isn't dead; but the promise made to him and 1000's of others,has died. Even if my husband tries to use the VA Healthcare System; it isn't free either; plus it took over 3 months for the VA to return his calls. With each passing day, we're seeing more and more of our benefits being taken away. We're watching other military veterans suffering and dying, due to the terrible lack of healthcare. Military veterans have given so much for their country; but our country refuses to give them what they were promised. This is not the same as entitlements such as food stamps and welfare. This is about our government lying to its veterans. One of our friends who served 12 years in the Army, is now suffering from Brain Cancer. He makes $900 per month in disability payments. He tried to apply for food stamps, and the El Paso County Food Stamp Office here in Colorado Springs told him he only qualified for $15.00 per month in food stamps. The $900 he makes in disability is used to pay his rent. So what is he supposed to eat with? He is slowly starving to death, in addition to dying from Brain Cancer. He is but one of many veterans in the same situation. Sadly, while our friend was being told he only qualified for $15.00 per month; he was standing next to an illegal immigrant family (man and woman); who was awarded $400 per month in food stamps. How ironic is that? Think really hard before you recommend to any of your loved ones to serve in our military. All they will get is heartbreak and sorrow. Tell your congressional representatives about this travesty. Have you seen the story about Chris Kyle (American Sniper) the US Navy Seal credited with the most kills in history. He was a true American Hero; and yet, President Obama didn't bother to even send his condolences to Kyle's family after he was murdered. That same President Obama who wouldn't do anything for the Kyle Family, sent his presidential condolences to a rapper who was killed in a drive-by shooting. It just goes to show everyone how much the President hates the military. I want to thank every veteran for their service and sacrifice, for our freedom.

After I provided testimony to Texas regarding the mistreatment of children at Youth City; it finally closed its doors in 2003. It also closed a painful chapter in my life, and in the lives of so many others who survived the torture of Youth City. We had hoped that the facility would be demolished, but unfortunately the stewards of the property and the compound itself had other plans. Over the last few years, the facility morphed in to various different care facilities such as a Drug Treatment Facility; Senior Care Facility, etc. As you can see from the pictures below, the transformation is dramatic. Now, with President Obama opening our borders to whoever wants to cross it; the compound is being used to house illegal immigrants. Thanks a lot President Obama. Wonder who's paying for all of this? I vote that the place be demolished. What do the rest of you think? I know that there are dead children buried there. For the living children there, it was like living in hell. This place was Satan's domain. It was pure evil. Just look at the 2011 photo. Satan lives there. Tear the place down, or turn it into a church. Ask any child who ever lived there, and they will tell you about the evil that lives there among them. 90 years of kids being abused and tortured. Satan definitely had a role to play there. I felt it, and so did many others. God took some of the lucky ones who died there; but the rest of us had to live with the evil there. It was a city of evil. Why do think it was called "Youth City." Amen.

Old Youth City Campus in 2011
Today its being used to house Illegal Immigrants

Youth City in Driscoll Texas in the old days
This is what it looked like when I was there

My biological mother Ruth Bingham
her high school yearbook in 1947

My Dad John, mother Ruth, and me
Notice the resembence?

My father John Warren Whitbeck came from a family of 14 kids,and 2 parents. Back in the 20's and 30's, during the Great Depression, it was surprising to see such a large family. Fortunately, my grandfather had a government job. So their family was able to survive, when so many others didn't. When my father was drafted for WWII, he was almost too tall at 6' 8". Nonetheless, he served with distinction and received the Silver Star for his gallantry in the Pacific against the Japanese. Once he returned from the war, he returned to his previous job as a San Antonio Motorcycle Police Officer.

One of the kids from Youth City who used to be my friend, wrote some details regarding the death of one of the kids at Youth City due to the negligence of then-director J.B. Moore. This child's death was just another "Matter-of-Fact," nonchalant occurrence at Youth City, and barely raised an eyebrow with anyone. His death was one of many that happened at Youth City. He was tasked to take out the trash during a severe thunderstorm. He accidentally touched an electric fence used to keeps the hogs inside their pen. His life ended face down in a large puddle of water. Youth City director J.B. Moore's comments about this event demonstrated the attitude of Youth City staff. "Oh Well!!" The kids at Youth City meant nothing more than dollar signs for J. B. Moore. Millions of dollars of donations were made to Youth City. 80% went to J.B. Moore and his wife. United Way of Coastal Bend made even more money than J.B. Moore. All of the work done by the kids (cotton picking, trash pick-up, etc, etc) was compensated monetarily; but was not given to the kids who did the work. This money went to J.B. Moore and his son Blake Moore. He told the kids that the money was being deposited in to trust funds for the kids. Instead, Blake Moore ran off with all of the money. The way we were treated is very similar to slaves. This was life at Youth City.

As 2014 comes to an end, I want to thank everyone who has helped me with my orphan advocacy. Everyone who donated money. Everyone who sent their words of support. Thank you. 2015 will be a challenging year. Hopefully the US Supreme Court will hear my case and make the right decision; to stop the abuse of America's orphans; and hold those responsible for the abuse, accountable. This would be the best gift they could ever give me. Abuse victims will always be victims. For our government to recognize that orphans are being systematically abused while in the custody of a state; would be astonishing. Please stop for a moment to think about our orphans, and how they are being treated, and ask God to help them.

I just found out from my attorneys and their investigators, that I have 10 siblings (some full blooded, and most half blooded) What an amazing discovery. My mother was a baby-making machine. 

This is the response from the Vatican to Carolyn
September 2014

Letter from the Vatican to Carolyn translated:

Secretary of State


Dear Sister in the Lord


We are encouraged by your feelings of filial affection and devotion, that you have been kind enough to write a polite letter to the Holy Father, making him part of your initiatives and projects.


Pope Francisco welcomes this cordial closeness, asking him to pray for the fruits of your service to the Church, and its children; while his heart imparts the Apostolic Blessing as a pledge of abundant heavenly favors be upon you.


I take this occasion to assure you of my consideration and esteem in Christ.

Vatican response came from Mons. P. B. Wells
Pope Francis Secretary of State

Fighting for Orphans to this day

My letter to Pope Francis
I wrote the letter in his native language of Spanish.

Dear Holy Father,


I was raised as a Catholic orphan in the United States, in the State of Texas. I lived in some of the worst conditions imaginable. I was forced to work hard labor from the age of 6 years old, up to 16. I suffered awful and terrible beatings and sexual abuse at the hands of my caregivers.


Throughout this ordeal, I constantly asked God to help me survive. I also asked God many questions; like why nobody wanted me; and why no one loved me. I never got a response from God; at least nothing that I recognized. I made a promise to God and Jesus that if they would help me survive the beatings and sexual abuse, I would help as many orphans as I could. God allowed me to survive this terror. Because of this, I have tried to help as many orphans as possible; one at a time if necessary.


I built a website on the internet for other orphans could learn from the help in our society, once they leave the orphanages. My website is called: My website has received 380 million visitors to date. I found a lot of resistance from politicians whom I’ve have asked for help. They do not want to help the orphans. I even asked President Obama to change the laws about how American orphans are treated. He did not answer me. I read that you were an orphan as a child; so I know that you understand what it means to be an orphan. So, I wanted to ask if you can help me with this important mission. I ask for your thoughts and prayers to help stop the terrible treatment of our orphans.


I know God hears my prayers for help with this important issue. I will continue fighting for our orphans until my last breath. I am but a humble sinner, and often doubtful that I'll ever see any help. I am only able to help one or two orphans at a time; and I will not ask for help from Catholic churches, since I know the sick and needy seeking refuge are many. Orphans do not seem to be a priority for most people. They are often forgotten, and have no voice in our society.


I dreamed about God when I was younger. I dreamed that God was speaking to me, saying that I was doing the right thing by helping orphans. God said to let people see what I was doing and they would help me. Maybe I was just dreaming, but I was convinced it was real. I no longer dream. I stopped having dreams years ago. Now, at age 53, I am convinced that God's dream was real. It’s because of this dream that I continue to help orphans. The devil has also tried to convince me to stop helping the orphans. I refuse to allow Satan to stop my mission.


Satan was the cause of my nightmares. As I get older, the nightmares have reduced. I know that even if no one helps me with the orphans, I will continue to help them. One person helping them is better than no one helping. I do not seek recognition for what I've done to help orphans. I do not seek praise. I'm just trying to tell the world that it’s not right to hurt orphans, like Jesus said in, Matthew 18:06  Take heed that you despise not one of these little ones, for I tell you that their angels in heaven always see the face of my heavenly Father." I realize that the problems and the weight of the world are always in your thoughts and prayers, and I have understood that requests for your prayers are many. I hope you find the time to bless this important issue; as only you can. This world is difficult, even for adults; but for an orphan who doesn't have the love and support of a family, it is even more difficult. I want God to give you strength to discuss this critical issue regarding our orphans. I am an orphan, and you're an orphan; and for this, we understand how terrible it can be for a child. The terrible treatment of orphans around the world has not changed in years, and with all of the political disputes and wars being fought; orphans will not be a priority. God bless you; and God bless the orphans.


Mrs. Carolyn Sosbee

There are no Federal Laws to ensure that American orphan children are cared for properly; nurtured and nourished adequately. Private orphanages are not operating under any laws. Even though they receive federal money, there is no government agencies monitoring the welfare of orphan children. For example, the Texas Youth Commission (TYC) continues to be wrought with claims of abuse by care-givers. Senior level TYC staff members are paid large salaries, all while molesting children in their care. TYC claims it provides no oversight to privately run orphanages in Texas. In fact, TYC is only concerned about children who have committed crimes; not children who are wards of the State of Texas. Who is the governing body responsible for orphans then? Organizations caring for orphans are receiving money from the State and Federal Government; yet they answer to no one. How is this possible? If you are a ward of the state, who is responsible for making sure you're not being abused or neglected? Why on earth would our government (State and Federal) pay money to a company, then not check in on the welfare of the children? 

TYC monitors children in criminal custody; but they have no responsibility to wards of the state?? Even Foster Parents in Texas are not being monitored, even though they're being paid a lot of money. There continues to be a huge percentage of Foster Parents who molest the children in their care. The children are so afraid to say anything, so the Foster Parents simply continue to abuse, and in some cases, kill these children. Our government make laws. Our President turns around and breaks these laws. When will these criminals be held accountable? Whoever the agency in Texas is responsible for ensuring orphans are cared for properly; should all be fired, and sent to jail; for they have failed their tasks miserably. Voters see what's happening; so everyone can change this during the next election. Don't vote Democrat, or Republican. Vote for the candidate who will fix our broken government. Hold them accountable for the actions. When the people fear the government, we have tyranny. When the government fears the people, we have liberty. Use your voices. Our world is in chaos. God is watching us destroy our planet. God is watching pedophiles molest children. God see's it all. At some point, he will exact his judgment upon us all. We will all have to answer for what we've done; or what we haven't done. If you hear of these businesses who are supposed to care for our orphans; abusing them; say something about it. Don't just turn away from it. Keep in mind that you could be suddenly killed in a traffic accident, and your children could become orphans. It can happen to any of us, at any time. Remember that God is watching.

You know things are getting bad when people are seriously considering the impeachment of Obama. (click here for story):

Obama Impeachment

This article should come as no surprise to anyone who ever lived in Texas:

Ever wonder what kind of people Texas hires to be Child Protective Services staff? Take a look at this shocking video:

There have been 7 Presidents of the United States since I started asking for help for American Orphans. None of these Presidents made the plight of Orphans a priority or a concern. Our elected officials continue to thumb their noses at orphan rights and care in the United States. Martin Luther King Jr., gave his life for the cause of civil rights and equality for all; but everyone forgot about the civil rights of American Orphans. American Orphans come in all colors and backgrounds., and many of them are treated worse than the slaves of the past. Even though child labor laws were created to protect kids, orphanages around the country (especially Texas orphans) continue to force children in their care to work hard manual labor to benefit their organizations; not the orphans. It would be nice if someone in Government would speak about this critical issue; but I don't hold out much hope that they will. The American people obviously care about this, but our politicians simply don't consider this to be an important issue. So kids like me will continue to be abused while in the care of their state. Most people know that orphans are abused and mistreated by their care-takers. The stories of abuse and neglect are quite prevalent. Here in Colorado, voters recently recalled 2 State Senators because these Senators stopped listening to the voters. The issue was Gun Control. Unfortunately, our elected officials continue to forget about our orphans, as though things like Gun Control are more important than the abuses and deaths our orphans suffer aren't really that important. There are laws in place to protect our orphans, but they are never enforced. There are agencies who are supposed to oversee Group Homes and Orphanages, but they rarely inspect these facilities. So what are these kids supposed to do? God didn't forget about me while I was an orphan. Gov. Rick Perry tried to cover up that I was a Texas Orphan. I used to ask God to just let me die, so I could escape the abuse I was suffering. This happened to me here in America; and not some foreign country. Any Social Progams for our orphans will cost money to fund, but when our government spends trillions of dollars on pork-belly projects they (not voters) want; it would be very easy to fund some simple orphan care projects to ensure we don't forget about the most vulnerable among us. Hundreds of my readers have suggested a gathering of former orphans. Some have recommended a march on Washington DC, to bring attention to the plight of American orphans. I have the necessary evidence to bring to our governments attention; so at least there is documented case of abuse to show. I'm not trying to bring chaos to America, but with 380 million hits/visits to my website, there are plenty of people who would support such an effort. Thank you everyone for your care and concern.

I've noticed several different petitions making their way through the webisphere for the impeachment of both President Obama, and Texas Governor Rick Perry. It seems that both of their approval ratings have plummeted  to all time lows. I guess Americans are just plain tired of the numerous scandals with Obama; and the "Pay-to-Play" cronyism politics Rick Perry thrives on. I think everyone knows how I feel about both of these guys; so I would strongly recommend to anyone reading this, to sign up for any of the many petitions floating around. If enough people speak up to let Congress know; maybe they'll do something about it.
Pres. Obama calls people who were involved in the recent school shooting, but he can't even acknowledge calls to change the way our orphans are treated. He makes comments about Trayvon Martin; but he refuses to say anything about the travesty that is the dysfunctional care orphans receive right here in the US. Gov. Perry refuses to do anything about Texas orphans, all because they are too young to vote, or contribute to his campaign. God is watching all of the abuse these orphans (like me) endure, and even though God warns us in the Bible not to hurt little children; it's clear that our nation doesn't care. I have 360 million hits on my website, so it's clear someone is listening. I will continue to speak up and fight (if necessary) for the rights of orphan children here in the US. I do care about foreign orphans as well, but I think Americans should care for American orphans, before sending their money abroad. I asked Pres. Obama what his thoughts were regarding the way US orphans are being treated/abused, but he refused to respond to me. He refused to respond, because he doesn't care; just like Rick Perry doesn't care.


I don't know how many of you watch the Steve Wilkos Show. You should take a look at his show when you have a chance. Sometimes, his shows are kinda crazy; but he also has shows about kids being abused, molested and mistreated. For example, today's show had two completely retarded parents, who placed their child in an industrial dryer; kicked the child in the face with steel-toed boots; flicked pennies at the child's head, and yet neither of them felt they had done anything wrong. Where do they find these idiots? As bad as foster care is, these kids would've been better off being in foster care, than with their parents. Hat's off to Steve Wilkos for his advocacy.

Read this link, and you'll see the main problem with our judicial system. It's judges; and their arrogance. Many judges have a "God-complex." They think they can do whatever they want to whoever they want, whenever they want, without any retaliation against them. Although my case is not similar to the case mentioned in the link; it does clearly show the same corruption I experienced with the judges involved in my case. One has to wonder if these judges will ever be held accountable for their actions, at least here on earth. It is truly a sad state of affairs.

Don't get me wrong; I have hispanic heritage in my family and my bloodline, who came to the US legally years and years ago. However, I don't care what race someone is, if they break our laws, they must be held accountable. Instead of trying to write new immigration laws; just enforce the ones we already have. What's the purpose of these laws, if they're not enforced. If our current laws aren't enforced, what makes us think new laws will be enforced?

Try to guess who the real minority is in America? You might be surprised.

According to statistics, it is the Native American's (the true Americans) who are the true minority. My own Native American heritage is Pima Indian, Cheyenne River Sioux and Mohawk. Many of my ancestors were exterminated at Wounded Knee. My husband is Chickasaw. Shortly before Obama was elected to his first-term, he made numerous statements about how he was going to help Native Americans rise from poverty and despair. He has since done little or nothing to fulfill those promises. Thanks to organizations such as the American Indian College Fund, Native Americans are being given opportunities to go to college. Unfortunately, poverty and despair are rampant within tribal communities. Without sufficient opportunities to succeed, this despair will only proliferate. Use your voice, speak up, and tell President Obama to keep his promises.

Kids - Don't be afraid to tell someone if something bad happens to you; or if someone bad tries to do something bad to you. Don't try to conceal it, as it will only tear you up inside. It may not seem like anyone cares, especially when we have so many government people who don't care about kids anymore; but someone will listen. I asked Pres. Obama several years ago to step-up and help kids; especially kids who have been abused, orphans and foster kids; but he chose not to do anything. His wife just likes to talk about kids who are obese; not kids who have been abused, molested or worse. There are good people out there who will really help you. If the first person you tell doesn't want to help, then ask another, and another. Don't give up. Tell a police officer, tell a school teacher, tell a fireman, tell your doctor.
Don't try to get the President to help you. He will not help. God says to turn the other cheek; but if you're being molested or abused; you do not have to allow this to continue. Don't worry about being disowned, since my family did this to me, after I refused to keep my abuse a secret. Anyone abusing you, doesn't deserve you anyway. Some times its better not to have a family. I didn't have a family, and I turned out just fine. Remember, God warns people who hurt kids, that they would be better off wrapping a large stone around their necks, and be thrown in the ocean, than to hurt a child. This has to stop. President Obama will not do anything to help, so long as his own kids are protected. So don't count on him for anything. Hopefully, the American people will find a way to make kids a priority at the next election. In many other countries, paedophiles are immediately executed upon conviction. The US should do the same.
Lord..please help with all the children, especially those being abused, molested, orphaned or in foster care; as they are the most vulnerable among us. Please tell our government to stop protecting paedophiles in the courts, prison and on the street. Amen

Matthew 6 : 5-6

6:5 - “When you pray, you shall not be as the hypocrites, for they love to stand and pray in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen by men. Most certainly, I tell you, they have received their reward.

6:6 - But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

I think the Preachers of Mega-Churches never used these verses in their sermons. Makes you wonder, huh? I don't think God intended for churches to be businesses. I don't think that's what he had in mind.

Pope Francis and Marilyn Monroe
Famous Orphans

Did you know that the Prophet Muhammad (Prophet of Islam) was orphaned at age 6?

**30 July 2013**
When the Pope himself has to remind people to exercise "Social Humility" especially when it comes to Orphans and Widows; that really says a lot about our society today. As a society, we're all way too wrapped up in ourselves; our jobs; our interests, that we have forgotten the most vulnerable of all; Orphans! They are without families, without love, without personal guidance; left to their own devices in most cases. More importantly, their "Parent's" (the State that has custody of them) consider them a burden, an added cost, and more trouble than they're worth. This poor attitude about them seems to have proliferated throughout all of government, and down to ordinary citizens. The giant mega-churches dotting American cities; who should be doing more to help orphans, seem more interested in mansions and Cadillacs for their preachers. Take a look at how many States in America have Orphan Programs worthy of mentioning. Do they offer after-care programs; Life-Skills Programs; Education benefits; Therapy, etc? There are no states that offer these essential services. Texas happens to be one of the worst, in terms of how it treats it's Orphans. Texas even tries to cover-up its orphans, in case they're abused and say something to protest.
It's going to take ordinary people like you, to stand up and say something. President Obama has made numerous promises, but kept only a few. His promises about the wonderful things he was going to do for Native Americans never panned out. I've personally sent him several letters asking how he could improve American Orphans lives. He answered none of these. It's politics as usual I guess. Since I didn't donate to his campaign, I shouldn't expect a response from him. It's definitely something to think about. I hope each of you reading this will take the time to write to your Congressional representatives, and ask what's being done about this huge problem. I think you'll be surprised when you don't get an answer.

Born to be an Orphan
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Jack and Donna Harris with their son Scotty
They were going to adopt me in 1973, but changed their mind

Jack and Donna Harris of Corpus Christi Texas took me out of Youth City quite a bit during 1973. They expressed an interest in adopting me. Unfortunately, Donna Harris suddenly changed her mind about adopting me. She didn't want anything to do with me, even though I was only 11 years old. Jack was a great father-figure and quite the opposite from Donna. Once Donna refused to adopt me, I was taken back to Youth City. Of course I was emotionally crushed. I still stay in touch with Jack Harris to this day. Jack divorced Donna a few years after returning me to Youth City.

105 children rescued from child prostitution all across the US. The story says that a majority of these kids came out of Foster Care, but it doesn't mention any orphans. This happens because of the lack of after-care for foster kids and orphans once they leave State care. State and Federal government are aware of the risk to these kids, but do nothing about it. These governments don't even track these kids once they leave state custody. They continue to ignore the problem, and things like this will continue to happen.

Carolyn court document shows her birth 28 Jan 1963

Carolyn new birth certificate shows 23 Jan 1962
See how easy it is for the State of Texas to manipulate birth records?

Due to their political contributions to various Texas officials; and their relationship with organized criminal elements, the MacKenney's were able to change my birth date without difficulty. How is a person supposed to know how old they are? My biological mother clearly stated my birth date was 28 January 1963, but my new adopted parents changed the date, adding a year to my age. My new adopted mother's birthday was 28 January, and I can only speculate that she didn't want my birthday to be the same as her's. How does someone do this? With money, you can do just about anything. They also changed my son's birth certificate as well; after they kidnapped him from Texas Children's Hospital.
Many of the people who adopt orphans today, do so for monetary gain, since the Federal Government offers huge financial incentives to adopting families. In my own neighborhood, a nearby family adopted 6 kids, and they are often overheard bragging that the money they received from the government was used to pay off their house, and the purchases of their new RV and Sport Utility vehicles. People wanting to adopt should do so from their heart; not for the money. The government allows this practice to continue unfortunately. Once these people adopt, noone from the government ever follows-up to ascertain the well-being of these children. In many cases, these children suffer untold abuse at the hands of their new adopted family, just as I did; and noone from the government ever knows about it. People need to speak up about this travesty. Thank you for listening.

Carolyn is now on Twitter. Tweet your thoughts to her @casosbee. Those of you watching the news saw Governor Perry dropping out of the Presidental race. Carolyn kept asking him to explain his record of poor orphan care in his state; and to explain why he is drawing his retirement pension, along with his regular salary; while campaigning for President. Hmmm! The list of illegal activities he is committing continues to grow. Eventually, Texans will wake up. We hope the US Attorney will reveal its investigation results against Rick Perry soon. Carolyn's case will be among these.

*Quote of the month*
"Your worst enemy is often yourself"
Watching TV tonight, I saw a show called "Black in America." Some of them made reference to slavery, even though this is 2012. Everyone needs to understand that even white people have been slaves. I was treated by Texas just like a slave; having been forced to work in cotton fields; trash pickup details, and other labor details, without ever being paid one thin dime. I was also beaten regularly, raped by care-takers and abused repeatedly. I have close friends of virtually every race; and don't have a single prejudiced bone in my body; but it saddens me to hear some blacks still making reference to slavery in 2012, when I know they have not been involved in slavery themselves. Skin color has nothing to do with slavery any more.

Carolyn 4th of July
Prosperity Lake Colorado

One might think that at 51, Carolyn would be slowing down, but they would be wrong. She continues to pursue the State of Texas and the Federal Government to force them to change the current policies governing orphan children in the US.

Carolyn at 51 years old
March 2013 mild winter in Colorado

Why is it that paedophiles get over? Why do molesting Priests get over? Our society has become so nonchalant about these predators. They live among us, in our neighborhoods, and cities; close to our schools and shopping centers, mingling with our children. Even when their convicted of molesting a child, they are segregated in prisons, protected and treated with care. Our system has forgotten about the victims of these monsters. How do they have any rights? Their victims obviously don't have any rights. Did you know that in the Middle East and other places like China and Russia (even developed countries); once a sexual predator is convicted in court, they are immediately taken to another room, and a 50 cent bullet is fired into their brains. There is no tender care for them. Imagine how much money is being saved by this immediate solution. No appeals, no nothing. It also sets an example for other would-be predators. Unfortunately, our government officials believe that these perverts need to be cared for with gentle hands. Our politicians are almost as dysfunctional. Just look at Anthony Weiner, and Elliot Spitzer, who's infidelity is now on the front page of the news. It's no surprise that they think people will simply forgive them. Washington, and other state governments are full of corrupt politicians. Pres. Clinton set a terrible example for Americans with his sexual antics. Our government needs to take their gloves off when dealing with sexual predators. They can't count on judges to convict the creatures, since there are also judges out there who are sexual predators. Who can you trust? No one apparently. There is only one way to deal with a sexual predator; deal with them in a manner consistent with their crimes as harshly as possible. This would definitely serve as a deterrent for other monsters. Americans need to stand together on this. Children are precious in the eyes of God. They are his favorites. Our system doesn't feel the same about our children unfortunately.  It saddens me to know that I had to go outside my own country to find a law firm that was willing to fight for me and other abused orphans in the US. Wish me luck!!

Carolyn Christmas 2011
wishing all orphans could tell Gov. Perry what its like to do without Christmas

Carolyn in the snow 2011
Holding the torch for Texas Orphans

Carolyn playing with Christmas bunny
Happy Holidays everyone

Thank you to all 36 million (and counting) visitors to our website.

We have written another book about the evidence surrounding my case. This book is available on Amazon Kindle and is called "Born to be an Orphan." This book simply shows the evidence we've accumulated over the last few years. I hope you will take the time to read it, and support our cause.

Carolyn, age 49

Note from Dr. Tommy Sosbee
From the first day I married Carolyn, she has refused to stop fighting for her rights, and the rights of other Ward's of the State. 38 years of injustice is a long time for anyone to endure, and a weaker person probably would have succumbed by now. Child Abuse is never justifiable, regardless of who commits it.  She will not be forgotten or ignored. I will see to it that she is not forgotten, and will spare no expense to fight this with her. Happy Holidays.

Please take a look at Carolyn's movie as a tribute to kids who didn't make it out.

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Carolyn's battle for full disclosure continues. She appreciates everyone's support. Her book "Can They Hear Me Crying" will be available online and in bookstores soon, and she would really appreciate you reading this fascinating story.

We have discovered that the investigation and case has experienced some major Texas Government interference. Don't trust the State of Texas as they have their own best interests at heart. Remember what the Bible says:
Matthew 18:6 "But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea."""See that you do not despise one of these little ones, for I say to you that their angels in heaven always look upon the face of my heavenly Father."

Matthew 19:14 Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven.

Governor Perry should read this. Don't try to re-victimize victims. Ward's and Orphan's are always forgotten.

Seeing Governor Perry running for President reminds me that Evil still walks among us.

Watching and Waiting

She cries for those already lost
Carolyn is fighting to change the law

I have received an overwhelming amount of responses to my website; and it is my intention to try and respond to each of you. I know how difficult it must be for each of you who went through this system at Coastal Bend Youth City, since I went throught it too. I ask that you please try to have patience. I have been fighting for this for 38 years now, and am finally getting the results of these labors. I apologize to each of you that I have not had an opportunity to talk to yet. I know that you are victims, and victims have every right to be pissed off. I have received so many emails from others, with herrendous stories of abuse, rape, and torture. Just remember that God don't make no junk. You are somebody, and you have a voice. Through my on going efforts with the State of Texas, I am demanding a full accounting and disclosure for every child in an institution such as Youth City, and hope to have an official commision assembled shortly that will be able to answer everyone's questions; without any stigma of blame attached. Many of you are describing the inability to locate records from the State that you were ever there. I can assure you that there is most likely a record of your stay located in the archives at the State capital. Also, if you were baptized at any of the local churches around Youth City, there is a record of this as well. That's what I did. Keep the faith and don't give up. I have talked to some of you and have heard that in your desparation, you may have been considering suicide. I ask that you understand that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and if any of you are religous, you know what suicide will result in regarding your soul. We are a unique group of traumatized individuals, and often we find that even loved ones will not believe our story. We must keep our faith strong and never give up. I hope and pray that each of you will remember what happened, and that this cover-up by the State is coming to an end. Through our efforts we can ensure that this never happens to another child again. Keep them in your thoughts and prayers. I've discovered that many of you were not classified as "Ward's of the State," and if you were at Youth City as a foster child; the State did not have a legal responsibility to maintain any records of your time there. Please leep this in mind when trying to locate documentation.

My website is for all kids who for one reason or another find themselves abandoned, or in State Care. You need to know that you do matter, and that there are people out there who really do care. I will not stop trying to help other kids going through the same system I did. The State of Texas can try to slam the door in my face; but I will keep knocking on the door until someone opens it. Beware of predators; they might seem like a friend who listens, but be careful.
The State of Texas must understand that they cannot simply ignore the Ward's of the State in their care. They cannot try to erase their records. They cannot abandon them. They have a life-long responsibility to Ward's of the State, because the State serves as the child's parent. Kids don't just disappear when they push a button. There must be after care as well.

My adoptive mother and father were severe alcoholics; and someone from the State should have seen this during their assessment....Oh wait" the State never conducted an assessment of my adoptive parents because they were wealthy. There is a double standard in Texas when it comes to adopting a child. The State doesn't ask rich candidates questions like; "Are you a pervert," or "Are you a Child Molester," or "Are you a drunk;" but an average couple gets asked these type of questions.

Carolyn - 2007
After meeting with some local kids

I continue to meet with at-risk youth in my local area to let them know that they do have a voice; and to make sure they know that there is always hope.

As you read through my website, you might be asking yourself why someone like me does what I do? Honestly, it's because, unlike the State of Texas, I care about what happens to kids...all kids, not just one or two. I don't ever want to see what happened to me, happen to another child anywhere in the world; and especially not in Texas, or the US. I have been able to develop a very unique sense which allows me to be able to know if someone is a pervert, just by asking them a few questions. As long as the State of Texas continues to hire perverts to care for Ward's of the State, my work will continue. There are literally thousands of people dealing with children at the local, state and federal levels who have somehow slipped through the cracks, and are now somewhere in a position to molest a child. They think that no one knows; or that they won't get caught; but I can promise you (if you're a pervert, and you're reading this) your day is coming. The reason I survived the years of abuse, torture and molestation while I was a Ward of the State; was because I refused to let it beat me. I was determined to fight back and tell anyone who would listen. Unfortunately, when I told Senator Cornyn and Governor Perry, they both tried to act like they were doing something to help; but neither of them did anythng. You might ask how I have been able to stick with this twisted issue for so long; and it's because we can longer afford to ignore these deviant people being placed in charge of Ward's and Orphan's. There a thousands of child care facilities throughout the State of Texas; and most, if not all, operate to make a profit, and not necessarily to take care of children. The State of Texas facilities are no different. Youth City was trying to make money by allowing the children there to work in the fields, and collect revenue for this. The priority should have remained the care of the children.
Families considering adoption should be more strenuously screened to ensure they don't have any dirty secrets that might endanger a child. I know that with Judges, Doctors and Lawyers; and even priests being charged with child molestation these days; there needs to be a more rigorous screening performed on any one that may be exposed to a child. This is a very twisted world these perverts live in. It has taken me a lifetime to learn what those tell-tell signs of perversion are. I have also learned that  once your a pervert, you'll always be a pervert. This next step should be to take all of the perverts to an island that can only be reached by plane or aircraft, and leave them there to survive; with all of the other perverts.
Over the years, all types of mental doctor tried to figure out why I was angry about what the State of Texas did to me; but their problem was that they had never experienced what I had as a Ward of the State. So how could they analyze me?
Today is Mother's Day, and I am with my children and grand-children. My husband is in Iraq doing his part to preserve our freedoms. I survived the State of Texas because I had a strong will to survive, and because I refused to give up.

26 February 2009 - Today we're in Houston Texas meeting my son George. It has been truly amazing to finally see my son after all of the years that have passed. He understands what happened, and how we were separated so many years ago, and how long I have fought to find him.
Sadly, after meeting my son George, we quickly realized that he and his girlfriend were only meeting with us for financial gain. It appears as though they were deceptive, and attempted to manipulate the situation for their own personal gain. Once we discovered this, they quickly wanted nothing else to do with us. Clearly it looks my adoptive parents trained him well.
Fox26 News asked to see my documentation regarding my fight with the State of Texas, and I felt good that just maybe they might be willing to tell my story; but unfortunately they now have cold feet and are backing out on spreading the word. Such a shame.

I'm waiting to hear from the State. Judge McDaniels couldn't destroy the microfilm the State keeps in its archives. Officer Vera was taped claiming that he found these archived records. He also claimed that he had never seen anything like this case before. He did not know that I was taping his entire conversation. When the State asked me to send my declaration, I wrote 6 pages, and overnight mailed it to Austin Texas. The last phone call I got from Judge McDaniels was that he wanted me to wait until he was dead to publish this issue;  I've seen not only my issues being discussed, but others being discussed as well. I came from trash, and I continue to revel in the essence of the State squirming. When your owned by the State, its important that everyone involved understands their responsibilities and the repercussions of maltreatment. My kids mean more to me than anything. Judge McDaniels  was a bad guy, and wanted to know that his secret was safe. Clearly that is not the case.

Carolyn at age 47 on Presidents Day
This is my real Auburn hair color.

Carolyn August 2009

No child should have to suffer
No child should be abused

My website is dedicated to all children wandering around , hopelessly lost within the Child Welfare System; in institutions; group homes or in foster care. You have a voice if only you use it. It may not seem like it; but eventually someone will hear you.

My name is Carolyn. I spent all of my childhood traveling through the Texas Child Welfare System, from one institution to another; never once having my best interests considered by those in positions of authority. It is for this reason, I decided to create this website; as a venue for others in similar situations.

After more than a quarter of a century Carolyn continues to keep this in the fore-front of the Texas elected officials.

A child should be considered a gift from God. A child does not have a label on it that says, " Throw away when no longer needed." The State of Texas has a great deal of learning to do when it comes to "Ward's of the State."

What's New?

The Texas Civil Rights Project rejected my plea for assistance citing limited resources. Don't be discouraged by this..they may be able to handle your specific issue(s).

UPDATE!! As of 5 January 2009, US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) turned his Congressional Inquiry results to Texas Governor Rick Perry. I have already received letters from Texas Youth Commissions Chief of Staff stating how apologetic they are for what happened to me while I was a "Ward of the State," but that his agency was not responsible. Hmmmmm! Not quite sure what that means. He does apologize and say that whoever did these awful things to me should be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law. Clearly the State of Texas is responsible for what happened to me. Child Protective Services put me in Youth City, and the MacKenney's prematurely removed me without court authority. Everyone involved needs to be jailed. Hopefully, we will find out exactly what the state is doing, shortly. Otherwise, I will publish this to every major newspaper in the State of Texas. This would make a lot of people famous, just not the same kind of famous they would like. Wish me luck !!

Sen. John Cornyn and Texas Gov. Rick Perry

I will try to provide updates on current legislation; lawmakers who are carrying the torch for those like us, and different contact information for those able to assist.

I will try my best to push our lawmakers to create and pass legislation that will protect former "Ward's of the State." Protection should come in many forms; such as free college tuition; free attorney utilization in case litigation is needed, or if compensation is due the ward. Assistance with records searching; to include research involving biological parents in case medical history needs to be ascertained. These and many other forms of protection are crucial to the success of a released "Ward of the State." Interviews with the Attorney General's Office to determine if criminal charges should be filed against offenders who violated the ward's civil rights is essential, so the laws concerning statutes of limitations are met.

You can all see what is happening here. Many of my closest friends keep asking me why I don't have an attorney. Until now, I have been keeping up the good fight by myself. The State has endless resources, and probably feels confident that no attorney in their right mind would go up against them. What the State does not realize, is that I have all of the evidence. So, if there are any attorney's out there willing to stand up for the rights of children to see that this travesty does not happen to another child.

The State of Texas will go to extraordinary measures to protect itself. US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) offered to conduct a Congressional Inquiry into abuse; molestation and trauma I suffered as a “Ward of the State of Texas.” He made this offer because he felt strongly that numerous things that were done by the State of Texas were incorrect. During the course of his inquiry, he discovered that the agencies whose job it is to protect and care for “Ward’s of the State,” had actually gone to extensive lengths to destroy official documents, and to cover up any evidence that I was ever a “Ward of the State.”


The records detailing my childhood journey to juvenile court, where my adoptive parents gave me to the state, have been destroyed as well. All documentation showing that I was at Coastal Bend Youth City in Driscol Texas was destroyed as well. There is no documentation authorizing my premature removal from Coastal Bend Youth City. All of my records from Social Services case workers visits were also destroyed.


Former Kleberg County Judge W.C. McDaniels sexually assaulted me in an office downstairs in the Kleberg County Courthouse, and he would always threaten me by saying that he would send me to the State Home. Finally, when I had had enough of him, I threatened to tell his wife what he was doing to me. He stopped molesting me. He may have had everything to do with the disappearance of my records, as well as my premature removal from State Custody (CBYC), by the very same people that had dropped me off at Juvenile Hall claiming that they were giving me back to the State, 7 years earlier.


The sad fact is, Senator Cornyn’s office was given sufficient evidence by me, as well as the primary Texas Youth Commission’s investigator Officer Orlando Vera. Senator Cornyn’s office recently sent a letter to me stating that they did not possess the necessary resources to continue its investigation, but that he had turned things over to Texas Governor Rick Perry’s office. After repeated requests to have his staff explain to me what was going on, I’m being told that “these things take time to investigate.”


Fortunately for me, I kept certain documents to clearly prove that I was a resident (captive) of CBYC; and who my House Parent was; photographs of me at CBYC and documents showing that I had been removed while I was still a minor. Sadly, my trust fund from CBYC disappeared with the former CBYC Director J.B. Moore as well. According to a Texas Youth Commission Criminal Analyst, “There is sufficient evidence to conduct an investigation.” The acts that the now deceased Kleberg County Judge W.C. McDaniels committed against me were supposedly turned over to the Kleberg County Sheriff’s Department for investigation, but to date, I have heard nothing from the Sheriff’s Department.


What is painfully apparent is that my adoptive parents were able to basically give me to the State of Texas for 7 years, and they did not have to pay a single dime for my care. Then suddenly, as if nothing had ever happened, they showed up at CBYC unannounced, and took me away, with no legal documents, no court order, nothing. Now, Child Protective Services, and Social Services state that they have no documents to verify my existence at CBYC; even though their workers visited me at CBYC from time to time. I guess those visits weren’t documented either.


Not only was I raped, molested, beaten, starved and worked like I was on a chain-gang; I also had my supposed earnings stolen from me. I was isolated; not allowed out on outings; never provided dental care or medical care; barely educated, and left with no life skills other than the uncanny knack of staying alive. I have had every door I’ve opened slammed in my face at every level of State Government when I wanted answers.  The sad fact is; I was the victim then, and I remain the victim even today.


The State of Texas knows very well that it is wholly responsible for what happened to me while I was a “Ward of the State.” What I have gotten so far is a lot of “It wasn’t me,” or “it wasn’t our department or agency.” The State has refused to speak to my adoptive parents to ascertain exactly how they were able to prematurely remove me from the State’s care without a court order. This has allowed my adoptive parents to flourish and continue their deception. CBYC was forced to close in 2004 under horrible conditions. My former House Parent now lives in a nursing home with Alzheimer’s disease, and doesn’t even remember her own name. Former Judge W.C. McDaniels is also deceased, as is the former Director of CBYC J.B. Moore.


Where are all the records of the kids who were forced to survive in that awful place called Coastal Bend Youth City? Where are all of my records? My journey through this system began in the early 70’s, and should have been well-documented. The year I spent in Harris County Juvenile Hall; my court appearance in front of a Juvenile Court Judge where my adopted parents relinquished their custody of me; Child Protective Services escorting me to CBYC in Driscoll Texas; 5 years at CBYC; Bishop ISD school records; numerous visits with social workers at CBYC; numerous visits with Judge W.C. McDaniels, and ultimately my premature removal from CBYC by my adopted parents.


There appears to have been a concerted effort on the part of the State of Texas, to destroy any records of my time spent in their care, or their facilities. When I returned to CBYC in 1992 and spoke with the Director Ron Rossi, he stated that my records had been taken out behind the facility and burned. He also stated that he had no idea about my trust fund, or who might have handled it. Going back to CBYC was horrific for me, and took me some time to get over. I don’t think I will ever really be over it. The state knows that I was at CBYC, but they cannot determine how I left there.


At the very least, the State of Texas owes me an apology for what happened. It should also compensate me for my stolen trust fund (with interest), and compensation for the torture and abuse I suffered while making the journey through their system. The people of the State of Texas would shudder to know that things like this are happening right under their noses. What do you think the Governor and the Senator would do if this had happened to their child? My website is for those like me who have somehow fallen into the cracks that make up the Child Welfare System of Texas.


It is for the child who has somehow gotten lost in the bureaucracy and red tape, and who is now only a number or a statistic. The State of Texas has a difficult time admitting that it did something wrong, but the more people who read this, and talk to their elected officials, surely there can and will be some kind of response.



On 15 January 2009 Texas Governor Rick Perry’s office informed me that while what happened to me was reprehensible and unimaginable, the fact of the matter is, TYC was not responsible for Coastal Bend Youth City, and therefore this matter was closed. Wow, that’s hard to believe. Child Protective Services took me to CBYC and left me there for 5 years. Is CPS not a State agency, and why would they take a Ward of the State to a facility not under the scrutiny of the State; not bound by State Child Care policies and Regulations? Additionally, US Senator John Cornyn (Texas-R) staff informed me of roughly the same thing. Because CBYC was not a TYC operated facility, and that only occasionally did CPS bring kids to CBYC; then there was nothing more they could do.


When a child becomes a Ward of the State; the State essentially becomes the child’s guardian or parent. They are obligated to ensure that child’s best interests are served at all times. They are also obligated to ensure that the child is protected; not abused, nurtured, educated and cared for. I was not protected; I was abused severely; I was not educated nor cared for. So, on all counts, the State of Texas failed me, and they continue to fail me. It seems as though political survival is more important to these two elected officials. They have both shown me who they really are, and how much they really care.


How does the State of Texas find out that something like this happened, and simply say, “So”? It is completely ridiculous. I may have been born in Texas, but right now I’m glad I no longer live in Texas. Please don’t let these elected officials and State agencies get away with this. If this happened to you, would you stop trying to fight this? One thing I am certain of is that I will never stop trying to help other children in similar situations. The truth is right under our noses. The State of Texas was essentially my parent for 7 years, and now they act as though they have disowned me, or turned their back on me. My adoptive parents were abusing me shortly after adopting me, which ended up being the reason they relinquished their custody of me.


Why would the State allow me to return to the very same abuse 7 years later, without allowing the matter to go back to court? It clearly shows that my best interests were not considered. It’s as though I had no rights. If a normal parent did to their child, what the state and my adoptive parents did to me, they would be put under the jail. I have no help, no shoulder to cry on, nothing. I am on my own when it comes to fighting the State. The good people of the State of Texas have a powerful voice. If they will speak out about this to their elected officials, perhaps they can stop this from happening to another child. The really sad fact is, my adopted parents didn’t get into any trouble for what they did to me, because the State played in role in my records being destroyed, and if the State tried to get my adopted parents in trouble, they have to arrest themselves too

The State of Texas does not have the right to judge me; it should instead judge itself, for what it has allowed to permeate for 30 years. Once it decided to knowingly destroy official documents; it became an immediate accomplice to this massive crime. It deserves to be treated no better than the common criminal would be.

Can They Hear Me Crying? (c) 2008-2019 Carolyn Whitbeck